It's on its way!

First i started to play a lil on the same kind of thing, well on the keyboard on miniclip, then i remembered my brother was playing on some kind of thing also with arrows and thing and asked where that game was, then i got stuck, i searched for stepmania, ddr, dance dance revolution on youtube and saw those videos and then i longed for a dance mat. I got to have one i said. months and months have passed, when i get my paycheck i said, i'll order, but i wont get it until next month the 25:th and on august im gonna go study in college so i wont get to play that much and im not gonna take it with me to my college city wherever it might be.

Ordered it this wednesday, it's in germany now, hopefully i'll get it in monday! Come to mommy!

Hand Gestures

Hahahahhaha just watch it

Congraduations

Hahaha this dude is funny

complaints

It's one thing to get complained at, at work of not doing anything or doing it wrong. But when they say do it like this and do it like that and you already do it the way they want it, that's annoying <.<. He gathered six of us summerworkers and told us to work faster and blabalbla. I already did as he wanted and said; But i already do it, he said No. I thought wtf, dickhead in my head. Why cant these formen tell does who really doesnt work instead? And the dude beside me helped me out with the two machines i worked with afterwards -_-. Man i hate those lazybums that doesnt get told that they dont work. It's like those formen are just telling us that actually works to work harder -_-. Is it like that at work? Sorry to say this but, most of the lazybums are dudes, and it seems like they are gaining at work. They dont do as much and get paid as much as we who work more, sometimes i think like that and start to work slower <.< and ofcourse those stupid formen see it and tell me off. It's always like that, the first and only time I'm doing anything i get told off and those who does it all the time can keep on doing it without anyone telling them.

Nah those formen just have to have something to do, they dont work much <.<

Smosh - Boxman

Hahahaha XD

First day off!

Aaah im enjoying my three days off from work, reeeaally needed it especially when i've been doing the most boring and tiresome work this week, it was to cut and pull. My hands are still hurting but my back is alright now ^_^
This forman that is suppose to watch us work and stuff is reaally bossy, no one likes him. One time i came late after the short nine minutes break that by the way is not a break, 'cause the only thing you can do is get from work and then come back again. Well he said the chicken doesnt wait for you, try to come in time! Weelll duh it's not easy when its crowded there in the clothing area and the break is way too short to be a break. He's been on me the whole week -_-. Do this do that, why dont you tell the lazy bums to work instead of going of and on me all the time? But i think he praised me yesterday in a low voice XD.

Tehe watched three episodes of gilmore girls season one today and four episodes of one piece ^_^ have a lot to watch! Have to watch it while i still have some freetime XD

Is it wrong to not know some of my co-workers name although im eating breakfast and lunch with them and cold talk with them :P. It's hard, i miss the girl gang -_-. Dont think i'll become friends with these peeps... To many at once, i have to work with one at the time :P, or two, not six -_-

5 Year Old DDR Player

Aaawww sugoi ^__^

overtime

hahaha i have so much fun at work that i worked overtime XD. Nah just kidding this dude wanted me to help somewhere else so i did and after a while this person i worked with asked me if i worked night, i said no just daytime and he said that the others have already left, i asked whats the time?! HAhahaha omg i worked over half an hour -_- and im driving two others home so i ran to my car XD Geez
Made myself panncakes yesterday, i like panncakes ^_^ my mum says i just eat panncakes and nothing else and this time i said i wanted to eat it cold, she said no thats not good, i said i wanted to try and so i did, it tasted good ^^.

I think im getting used to working there, not as tired as the first week. lalala ^_^

^_^

So we went to Gröna Lund yesterday, it was fun ^^. When i came, Fatima and Sandra was already there, Liv was still not there so we waited and it turned out she was at the railway already... ehehe.

So the train arrived and we went in, i looked for seats with a table, i was thinking of playing cards the whole way ^_^ and me and Liv sat there but Fatima and Sandra was not sitting there -_-. But i forced both of them to sit there XD Bwaahahaha.
There was this old man smiling to me all the time, 'cause the girls and me all was cheery and laughed all the time. He talked to us a bit too ^^. At the end of the ride the old lady, probably his wife talked to us a bit too. I like those nice and sweet old people ^^, they are so cute XD.

Man the weather was hot, fortunately i was smart enough to put on a lot of suncream or i would get eczema. I was a bit hungry and asked the others if they wanted to go eat something first. What about here, me and Fatima asked. The others, I runno, what about here? I runno. -_- omg what i really bugs me is their quality of not being able to decide anything. Especially Sandra, man i really want to bitchslap you sometimes XD. None of us likes to be in charge and decide. I know it feels wrong to boss around others. And in the end, it always turns out to be myself to take charge -_-. hahaha yeah i wants things to be done XD, hmm maybe i should stop thinking like them and take charge immediately, i think they would like to be taken care of XD. My bitches! XD mahaha that was funny.

After the little sandwich we continued our trip to Grönan and there was a short line there already. This girl ran like she was running for life and i realized she was running to get before me in the line, i was like erm okay, ehehe and walked and tried to walk a bit faster ;P but she got before me, meh whatever i thought.

There was this maskot who came to me and Fatima in the line, he immitated my moves for a while, i didnt know how to act and laughed nervously XD, it was like ehehhe...

Oh man i wanted to bitchslap sandra again, she wants me to take care of everything, gosh im not your mother sandra! She wanted me to go in before her and ask for the price and stuff even though she stood there closer -_-. She has that card too why couldnt she do anything? So yeah i was a bit off to her that day. Sorry 'bout that but you really bug me with that side of your personality.

And why do i have to take care of things im they youngest one T_T, you guys say you own me so why do i have to take care of everything all the time T_T
Both Liv and Sandra are chickens who doesnt (sandra more) and are scared of asking people stuff, fortunately Fatima was there with me. I'm scared of asking for stuff too but i've learned to be tougher and i think it's because of Fatima ^^. I remembered once in school when i wanted to ask a teacher for something, i speak with a low voice, well i still do in other places then home, so i said the teachers name with a low voice, Fatima spoke with a louder voice and the teacher immediately turned his head against us. After she told to me that i had to speak up and not with that soft weak voice. I didnt want to be that weakling and step by step i went for a tougher attitude.

After we had to buy ridebands too, it was to cost less than the original price but when we got there, and ofcourse Sandra again pushed me to do the talking -_-, they told us there was no such thing, I didnt give up and said that it clearly stood it and regretted i didnt take the newspaper with me. But nope so we bought the ridebands anyway. After we all went for pee pee, we had drunk a lot before XD, and after locked our stuff in a locker. After we went to the service center to ask for the boatrides and why the ridebands was more expensive and ofcourse Sandra and Liv stood there in the background while me and Fatima had to do the talking, again...
Hahaha this service center girl thought me and Fatima was under 13... i mean common XD that's a record XD. But we got our money back anyways, she was nice, we didnt even have to prove that we paid more with a reciept ^_^

After we ran to the rides omg it was so fun ^_^. HAhaha sandra is a chicken in everything, didnt wanna ride anything extreme XD. I asked her why she was here if she didnt wanna ride anything, yeah i know a bit rude XD but i was slighty irritated in her XD sorry XD I was kinda evil that day :P After a while we rode this shipride and me and Fatima felt a bit nauseous after it, Fatima a bit more, she wanted to puke :/, we sat there and rested for a bit while sandra and liv went to popexpressen to ride it. Then this orange mascot dude came and teased the people around. hahaha he was a bit funny XD. After we went to blåa tåget, a ghost ride. Oh man it's like nothing scares me anymmore -_-. Fatima felt sick and skipped it, sandra skipped too, there was only two seats per ride. so me and liv went, i held her arm at the beginning 'cause i thought it would be really scary. ehehe not... It was just these ugly looking things popping out from the walls. So i let go of liv and sat there a bit bored. After the ride we stood there and looked for the others, they werent there so we decided to wait there or we would lose them. When they came back fatima looked a bit pale and thought she might have felt bad from hunger so we took a break and ate things. I bought a huge ice cream XD it was a bit difficult to eat it XD. Sandra and Fatima didnt wanna go for anymore rides so it ended up with just me and liv doing the extreme ones :/. And me and fatima had talked about to go for the rollercoaster and fritt fall for a long long time and we didnt go for it together :(. Poor fatima. But i had fun for her XD tehehe. Hhahaa fritt fall was so fun, i think i held my breath during the drop mahahaha. And the mouse was worse than the rollercoaster!

By the end of the day i got a few red pops on my arm so i took more suncream on. We were all like dead peeps. So excausted from all and being out in the hot sun the whole day. But we still played cards XD. I told them we had to go out for a cup of tea someday and tried to force the others to call the other girls. mehehe manipulating XD What they have to do something, i dont want to do everything =O. So we decided a date and that was it ^^. It's hard to keep in touch -_- especially with these girls -_-.

Byebye now, im gonna make myself panncakes for work tomorrow ^_^

Charmaine Sheh - Yellow Sand's Love MV

Yaay go charmaine ^_^

Gröna Lund here I come!

YAaay gonna take the train and travel to Stockholm soon

Weee hope i wont get too sunburned, my skin is really sensitive I'll get red knotty spots on the skin dunno what it is, it might be eczema or something in that way. Baaah glad the work week is over, im gonna enjoy my weekend, relax tomorrow and maybe eat my first ice cream of the year Yummy!! Im drooling already. Teehehehe see ya later!

day four at work

soon this week of work is over, sooon sooon! ah my back hurts from standing all day long :(, hope i'll get use to it soon.
Some workers there are kinda rude, scolding although we the summerworkers arent doing anything wrong. Tss get lost :P
mahaha at the end of the day we got free chicken to take home XD FREE STUFF FREE STUFF!

Soon im gonna switch my piano for a keyboard :/, was at the piano dudes home today to take a look at the keyboard, it was silvercoloured. It was good but kinda small :/

yaawn, no im not just writing that 'cause im tired, i actually yawned and wrote it during the yawn XD naah i have nothing to write more so toodles!

Yawn

Im tired and not because of first day at work but because of not sleeping enough. I think it must have been the night before graduation, it was still very light outside when i went to sleep and kind of hot so i couldnt sleep first and then i woke up several times and couldnt sleep for long times and then got up early to get ready. I couldnt go sleep early the graduation day either because i had to celebrate it and the day after graduation i woke up early and went up and yeah today i had to wake up at 5.00am and yes im shitty tired
This guy who works together with me now, he was my old classmate, is much nicer without the two bitches. I dont know, i like him, he is nice but should i just forgive his attitude. He didnt give me much attitude during those days or weeks when they were complaining about all the work THEY did. He gave my friend becca more attitude. hehehe, i cant dislike someone because my friend does ^^"

On the morning i drove myself and two others to work and met up with becca there. Her mother was with her and she let us in with her card. We had to sit and listen to an introduction till like 11.30 or 12.00 then we got our supervisor and started to work. hehehe after a while i got to work togheter with this black dude eric, my pal XD not. he was nice, said hello to me XD. It was really stressful, it was on a rolling band so we had to be fast, it was difficult in the beginning but i got the hang of it and it went better. After that i got to work with my old classmate again. tehehe.

The time went fast, the work day was over and we could go home, was thinking about going training but there's no medel today or there was one but too late so here im sitting and havent done any training since thursday -_- have to do tomorrow.

Byebye now gonna watch this tvb series called dance of passion, it rocks! well my idol charmaine sheh is in it anyways ;P

Tetris- Korobeiniki

From tetris we have korobeiniki! sorry i really cant play it perfect partly because of the lack of training and partly because im being watched

Sadness and sorrow

flaws and shit but i dont care the goodies in it can be heard ^_^

dam dam daaam

Forgot to write something!

-R.I.P NV3BNV- |2003.08.18-2006.06.10|

And now to my new life ^_^

Sunday

Hello im tired.

Yesterday was the graduation day. Still i couldnt get it that i was graduating. I didnt have any tingling feeling and being all happy. Just felt like an ordinary day. Didnt feel like i was leaving this school at all. But it was fun. The speeches were boring but it was fun to get ready for the graduation. I put on my white dress that was bought last year in Hk. Aww took to few pictures of my graduation day. But i have some in the old camera too and we took graduation pictures in school too but they wont come until five weeks later <.< usually longer...

Ahh the day was beautiful yesterday, i really wished for a great weatherday and it came true XD

Got two messages to my cellphone, it was from sandra and liv, both congratulating me on the graduation, i was busy getting ready so i didnt write back XD. Liv told me not to bring flowers to her because she forgot to get me some. I brought anyways XD why would i leave the flowers i got for her because she forgot about me? In thinking of that, i've done a lot of things for them that they havent done for me and i really like giving more than getting.

They were all beautiful in white dresses or top with a white skirt and they boys had costume and looked great.
Sandra was so cute in her makeup, A.K was all white, Liv had a white vest, Becca had this simple white dress that looked really great and Fatima was all white. Aww

We gathered outside and the teachers helped us take pictures, more of my classmates came and we took again and then some came again and we had to take more XD haha it was fun. We kept increasing XD

The two snotty bitches in my class was late for the graduation pictures so we all had to wait for them, then we took the pictures, we had to take a lot of pictures because the photographer said we looked sad and told us to smile all the time and a girl from another class asked us why we looked so sad, it was our graduation day cheer up. Hahaha my class is sad, no one gets along XD. After the group pic we went inside to take the single ones it went faster xD. Put your right hand on your right knee and tilt your head a bit to the right, great hold that position *click click* and it was done.

We went to our champagne breakfast at jessicas. We had some watermelon, pineapple, biscuits, cheese, grapes and baguetts and champagne ofcourse. I tasted the champagne and it tasted yuck. I felt the burning in the throat and left the glass there XD Yuck! It was difficult to eat the pineapple, the juice kept dripping along my fingers. We took some pictures there too or i didnt, i asked my teacher to take but she said she'll take it after getting the food and then she forgot... again XD she always forgets me XD

We had to leave quick, the graduation pictures were taken 9.00 am and it prob took about 20 minutes, then we walked to jessicas. The graduation ceremony was at 11.00 am so it went quick. It was a really short champagne breakfast, i had to take the bagett with me and leave XD.

After the ceremony the students had to stay inside and wait for all the relatives to get out there in the sun and wait to take us. So inside there we waited for the door to open up to the freedom. Slowly the door opened after i dont know how long and the sun shone in, we shouted and ran out.

I looked for my studentpicture in the sea of people with their studentpictures. It was a bit hard but then i saw it, it was in the back long long away XD. I saw my parents friend first, she and her two children that im kind of an older sister to XD. They've recently lost their father, i really didnt know what to say so i just smiled to them. I wanted to hug them but didnt. I really dont know how to act. It so hard to get all sentimental. Im so sorry for them and want to comfort them but cant... Really felt bad.
I was told where my family was and went to them instead, my mum was trying to fix up the mess with the bands and the roses my friends were gonna get. It was all tied up in knots XD haha. So i helped out and my brothes gave me cute dolls tehe. Got flowers and all. Took some pictures and then went looking for my friends, just found Liv and gave her two roses. Im giving you one anyway i said and hugged her.
Then my mum told me to take pictures with some that im not really friends with, i was like okay... But we're all chinese so hahaha okay XD It was my parents friends son who also graduated that day and a classmate that im kinda relative with and another girl.

Couldnt find my other friends so i guessed they had already gone to the graduation vehicle and yes they had.
But Anna we said we were not gonna give flowers to eachother A.K said. HAhaha i gave Becca flowers first and hugged her wished her good luck in the future and then sandra. I was still holding four flower (two for each one) and looked around for Fatima. Then i thought, hmm why am i still holding four flowers, isnt it just fatima's one missing? And remembered i hadnt given A.K yet hahaha, embarrassed, she must have thought i wasnt planning on giving her one XD hahaha wups and what she had said before XD that was bad of me XD.

We climbed up in our vehicle and drove away. All the wait we shouted. I shouted real loud, in the end i almost didnt have any voice left. It was fun to shout, not to mention all the attention we were drawing. Some of them waved, hahaha aww it was fun. I've seen the students every year and this time i was one of them.

After that we all split up and hugged eachother again. I didnt feel sad at all, didnt feel like we were really splitting up and maybe not see eachother again. Well im gonna see three of them next saturday and one of them at work. A.K i might not see again, and we dont really have that close relationship either and the four of us were gonna meet again later in that day to party.

I walked home my feet hurting from the high heels and standing still for a long time and had a cake. I very delicious one, had two pieces XD Yummy *licks mouth* it was a strawberry one ^^. Yummy mommy i said and hugged her. But before eating the cake i had to take a shower, i was all sweaty and the graduation cap didnt make it better. Was all wet under the cap.

Oh and during the graduation ceremony after we recieved our grades we had to turn our caps right and was gonna shout a sentence, the snots in my class were all bitchy and ruined the whole thing by just shouting. Oh man that was really not necessary. They are so full of themself. Glad to get rid of you!

In the evening me and some of my friends gathered to go out party. My first time, i really wanted to see what it was like XD. Wore my pink flower dress and went out to meet sandra and walked with her to the meeting place with the others. hahaaha come to think of we have walked together to school in the last three years and now it ends... we went to her sisters place to have a little before party, becca had brought some champagne and said that one tasted better than jessicas so i had a bit, nope tasted yuck that one too >.<. I had brought chocolate XD
tehehe got my stamp to barbros before the before party and was doing it all wrong, first i tried to pay the one that was gonna check my id and then i let them stamp my left arm, no your right arm she said. hahahaa yes its my first time i thought. HAhahhaa when i was waiting for sandra to come two drunk girls came and one of them got close to me and said 25 öre! I said errr right.

When we went to barbros again after the before party, becca and i went in first, the others were deciding if sandras sister wanted to come with us. becca had to go to the bathroom and we put our belongings away first. Got a number brick for that, didnt have any pockets so i held it and silly me left it there in the toilet later. When i thought of that i paniced for a sec and ran to the toilet again. Hope the drunkies didnt take it i thought XD. But it was all right i told the line of peeing people i forgot something in the toilet and could breath out when i saw the number brick still lying there.

We went to the small dancefloor first and danced and then to the big one and then then went out to get some fresh air. Man it was hot inside! Then we went inside again to dance, i got a bit bored, it wasnt that funny to dance for hours... so me and two of them sat there for a while and then got back to dance again. After a while this dude was putting his arm around my shoulders all sweaty and icky. Hmm i was like ummm and looked at my friends and turned my back against him. Hahahhaha my first turning down XD. The dudes there dont try more after that hahaha.
at 1.30 am me and sandra went home, man that becca is an party animal XD she can dance for hours.

Well this party thing, hmm no it was a lil fun but its boring to just dance there for hours, and no i dont drink. I reaally dont like the taste of alcohol and you dont have to drink alcohol just to have fun.

Thought i could not sleep when i came home but i did sleep and went up at eight this morning. My mum asked me if i had fun and if i had drank a lot. I said i just tasted some and it was bleh. She said, what no alcohol how boring XD hahaha other parents are glad that their children dont drink XD but she trusts me and know i wont do stuff like that.

Tomorrow im gonna start my summerjob XD. hahaha and the good thing is that i wont have any homework after work XD. Hmm is it good not to relax and enjoy the summerbreak for at least a week? Naah i wanna be in the move all the time, just sitting around doing nothing isnt my thing.

Swedish graduation ceremony

Recieving the grades and turning the hat forward

some of my graduation pics

GAAAH!

Im gonna graduate tomorrow =O. Feels so weird. I've been longing for this day in four years now and it's tomorrow. I was at sandra with the gals minus fatima we talked and had a great time. *Sigh* It was all sunny and beautiful weather. Her mother took pictures of us wearing our graduation hats.

I want to graduate but now when it's about to happen im not longing that much. It will be all different after it... like im gonna work in the chicken factory XD

hahaha okay gonna scootch out and meet Fatima and have a walk in the city, she's gonna buy something at the toyshope XD hahaha sucka!

after that im gonna drive us and two others to dress our graduation vehicle so tata!!

Boten Anna - BASSHUNTER

YEaaah!

Boten Anna /Basshunter

"Jag känner en bot, hon heter Anna, Anna heter hon
Och hon kan banna, banna dig så hårt
Hon röjer upp i våran kanal
Jag vill berätta för dig, att jag känner en bot

Jag känner en bot, hon heter Anna, Anna heter hon
Och hon kan banna, banna dig så hårt
Hon röjer upp i våran kanal
Jag vill berätta för dig, att jag känner en bot

Som alltid vaktar alla som är här
Och som ser till att vi blir utan besvär
Det finns ingen take-over som lyckas
Kom ihåg att det är jag som känner en bot

En bott som ingen, ingen annan slår
Och hon kan kicka utan att hon får
Hon gör sig av med alla som spammar
Ja, inget kan slå våran bot

(Ready for take off)

(Are you ready?)

Jag känner en bot, hon heter Anna, Anna heter hon
Och hon kan banna, banna dig så hårt
Hon röjer upp i våran kanal
Jag vill berätta för dig att jag känner en bot

Då kom den dagen, jag inte trodde fanns,
det satte verkligen kanalen ur balans
Jag trodde aldrig att jag hade så fel
Men när Anna skrev och sa:
"Jag är ingen bot
Jag är en väldigt, väldigt vacker tjej"
Som nu tyvärr är väldigt främmande för mig
Men det finns inget som behöver förklaras
För i mina ögon är hon alltid en bot

Hon heter Anna, Anna heter hon
Och hon kan banna, banna dig så hårt
Hon röjer upp i våran kanal
Jag vill berätta för dig att jag känner en bot

Som alltid vaktar alla som är här
Och som ser till att vi blir utan besvär
Det finns ingen take-over som lyckas
Kom ihåg att det är jag som känner en bot

En bott som ingen, ingen annan slår
Och hon kan kicka utan att hon får
Hon gör sig av med alla som spammar
Ja, inget kan slå våran bot"

Teachers dinner

So i was at the teachers dinner yesterday that some in my class had arranged. I drove sandra, liv and becca there. And yes they are still living xD.

We got there early and stood there in the corner not knowing what to do. Those in my class went back and forward preparing for the dinner and there we stood like fools. Tried to look for something to help out with.
They've been complaining about us not doing anything and not helping out. I really hate those who just sit around and doing nothing and this time that person was myself. But it's not easy to help if we don't know what to do, they can't really blame us for that. They took responsibility for all those stuff all we can do is to help them when they tell us to. How could we have known what to do. And whenever they asked us to help, we have, so i don't really know why they are pissed of of us. That's not fair.

I really wanted to stay there and help up clean afterwards but it got late and starting to get dark outside, i'm not used to driving in the dark and especially not on big roads and small curvy ones, and thats why i had to leave early. Im sure they are pissed because we didnt help out clean. But if they complain im gonna say that. They really cant expect me to wait around til real late and risk me and my friends life driving in the dark.
And it seems like the teachers in my class are on their sides too, but that is just because they have given their opinions and we the quiet ones have blocked ours, they haven't been said.

I think it's very unfair of them yelling at us because we havent helped doing all those stuff that needed to be done. They took the responsibility for that and kept all the chores for themself. How could we have known what needed to be done. It's not like we like sitting around like lazy asses. We really wanted to help. And as soon as they have asked for help, we helped them.

Sorry this is really boring but i cant stop thinking about that, I dont want to be called lazy and unneeded and i certainly dont want this class to be all bitter on eachother when it's just a few more days til graduation.

The teacher in our class came to our corner at the dinnertable and asked which was doing the most work for this teachers dinner. Well the three of them i said and felt a bit awkward, (what is he blaming us for not doing anything?) i thought. Um we paid ehehe... He held a thank you speech for them and we applauded.

Hey i helped one of them get a summerjob does that count ehehehe... He'll get a lot of money, i hope he's not that mad at me, although he is more sarcastic to us, i mean more than usual...

Okay now for me to try to put that behind me, got home late last night and had to talk to fatima, she's ditching our cookietime :( oh well, graduation clothes are important :P. hah i didnt get much sleep last night, maybe one or two hours, maybe three if i was lucky. Couldnt sleep at all, had all this thoughts that wouldn't fade into dreams... And ofcourse i woke up early too.

Im so gonna party at my graduation day, im actually looking forward to it. Im not really the party type. Dont like late nights and socializing with alcohol. But im not gonna get drunk, that i want to avoid. The thing that im worried about is getting home safe, but sandra and her sister will walk we home i hope.

Oh and im gonna buy the tickets to gröna lund today :D. Wee this is really gonna happen, i thought it would be just something we said and not happen. Tehehe i've been really pushing and trying to persuade all the girls to go and i've succeeded in three of em xD. Haven't asked Denise though, but don't think she can go, she's julian to take care of.

Mah no more to ease my heart with so i say toodles ya'll noodles XD

swedens national day!

Gonna hook up with some girl later and watch becka shake it XD, (she's gonna dance on stage). Geez getting closer to graduation day! Tomorrow its teachers dinner and im moi *points finger at myself* is going to drive sandra and liv there.kekeke gonna take up becka and she'll show us the way. Just a bit worried about the way home, i reaally suck at orienteering XD. But at least we'll be more people that can remember the road home ^^

Yes fatima, i really think this will work out. I really want this to work out... Yeah you're right, we both don't talk. It's good to have a bloggie XD. It's easier this way.

Mah gonna work out later, it's not good, tomorrow im gonna bake cookies and eat with my spanish group and then its this teachers dinner and then on thursday im gonna have cookie time with my friends omg im gonna grow fat XD. I want to look good in my gradutaion dress XD. Have to work out everyday XD mahaha.

Graduation day is very important for me. I've been waiting forever for that day to come. It's a huge step into the future. It's like starting a new life. I feel so old -_-. And after the summer break it'll not be the same again. I wont go back to the same school. I think i'll end up in Uppsala university. Hope so. But not in my first choice, the second one i think. But if my grades is enough for it i'll be happy, but it doesnt really matter if i'll get in it or not. The first one is five years and the second three years XD.

Before i thought of wanting to get rid of school as soon as possible but now i feel like i can go on studying forever. It wont be easier at the working market. Nothing is easy in life. So if i want to go back studying after college, i'll do that.

Mah i have to post some video in youtube soon. I was thinking korobeiniki from tetris or make a video about how to fold those small cute little stars ^^, but i want to save the battery for graduation day. And i reaally really hope the weather will be as good as it is now! And they say that it'll end at 3pm without any lunch, omg i'll die XD.

Man im writing a lot, have a lot to say i guess :P, but i'll stop for now!

Toodles noodles!

movieday!

I was at sandras today :D. Well we were suppose to come and just watch movies but when we came we played cards and a game where you had to answer questions about movies. Well i suck i didnt know anything XD i was beckas sidekick XD, we were a team tehehhe. But after that we went upstairs and watched a horror movie. It was one of Fatimas movies XD. Hm i thought i would get nightmares again, like after the grudge but it was not scary at all. HAhaha i think the grudge made it, nothing can scare me more XD.

I was to go out tonight with the girls, but sandra jumped off and then it didnt feel like fun anymore, so me and Liv jumped off too. Aaah that reminds me, gonna look at some gröna lund things :D

We're gonna have so much fun there, if any of them are going <.<. Me, Fatima, and Sandra are safe cards. Liv was gonna but she thinks there will be moneyproblem.

Ah Fatima we have to go to the rollercoaster, free fall and "silly house". HHahahaa oouh and maybe a ghost house bwahahhaha. Aaaah

Oh no soon graduation T_T. Freaky, i've been longing for that day in four years. Yeah it started when i was in ninth grade watching my brother graduate tehehe. There i stood and saw them cheer and thought i would never be there. But here i am just a few days from it.

It will be great to start all over again, really hope i'll become a better person. I really regret things i've done but i think its too late to try to fix it now.
I really appreciate the good times we had together... *tears*

We'll all grow and later we'll forget about the bad things i hope. The memories are filled with bad things but also a lot of good things. You'll still have a big part in my heart...

It's too bad that we are so different. Hahaha is it really the zodiac signs that's bugging XD...

Nah i'll love you no matter what have happened

I really dont want this friendship to end...


Ah okay leave this for now... Aw man i was to go out with becka and then i banged -_-. She must have been really disappointed. Dont really like disappointing peeps. But im gonna go out with them on saturday \(^_^)/ (i hope).

Piano - Frog's Theme

Suke!

Return of Heaven and Soul

Finally it's done, the layout :D. My brother fixed it for me. I wanted cool eyes for the header and there it is. Ayumi really has beautiful yes!

Still need some work but its all good now, im pleased with it ^_^

Graduation and friendships

Yay soon i'll graduate! I'll be missing my friends T_T, but we all have to move on and i'll keep in touch with some of them.
And for Fatima saying we're hiding under a false fasade, what about yourself. Just like denise thought. Keep thinking in this complicate manner. Why dont you just let all those crappy thoughts about everyone's bad sides lie down and think of everyone's good sides. I cant say much because i've done the same. But i rose up and found the good sides about everyone. Yeah it's hard when some of them just leave and say shit sometimes. But that is what happens when we're in a large group. We cant wait for everyone, we cant think of everyones best all the time. But under all that there's something really good that you seem to miss. I can anyways. It was hard but i like them very much. You dont really know them, because you havent been around as much as i have and well suit yourself. I remember all the good times we had, how much i used to love you, you understood me, you appreciated me, but then when i tried to get closer you kept this large wall around you, you didnt wanna talk about it. It was all bullshit, when i was feeling down and didnt tell you, you got angry because i didnt share those feelings with you.
I felt bad and thought i was the one keeping this large wall, but the difference between us is that i listen and try to change. So i told you my feelings and let me be vulnerable and thrown out. But i thank you, i needed it. I could share those huge burdens i had inside me. That was a great feeling and i loved you for that.

After some weeks or days i saw this dark shadow around you, you were not present and kept away from everyone. I wanted to be the good friend for you as you were for me. I asked you what was wrong. As usual you turned your face against me and asked like you didnt know what i was talking about "what? no im okay".
I didnt want to push you so i acted along... Okay i said. The thing that keeps bugging me is that when someone ask you to go out for something, you cant say no, you take all the ways around it and act like you're going along. Then in the last minute you dont show up and sometimes you dont even tell us.

School gave us a lot of tests and things we had to do. That was not fun but i didnt give up. i wanted good grades and studied hard. This breeze of dark air came along and for some days, weeks or even months i let it go between friendships and family. I was easily irritated and wanted to keep to myself. I started to dislike everyone. I didnt like their behaviour i could just think of everyones bad sides. I was so wrong. What about myself, what good was i? Why am i so much better than them? Im not. We all have bad sides that sometimes shines through the good ones. And sometimes we just see the bad sides.
I realized that i took everyone for granted and step by step i tried to change back to the happy cheery me. It was hard. I really wanted to build our friendship back Fatima. But i dont know if you want it as much as i want it. It feels like you already given up. And no you're not the only one. I've given up too. Nothing personal but we cant build this friendship up. Too much bad memories and difference in us has closed our minds. I feel this hate all around you. You are hating everyone in our class including the "girlgang". Open up your mind instead, stop faking a smile just to please me because i've been asking you what's the matter. You just dont want me to ask anymore and buzz off.
I remember those words you printed in msn, when i asked you about all this stuff, kept pushing you to open up. That was during the top of the "rage" i got. That day you had ignored me.
You told me that you couldnt trust people that easily. Fatima i know, im not that stupid, you thought you could hide it away from me? No i let you because i knew you didnt wanna tell me. Who can you trust if not your friends?
But dont get me wrong i dont hate you now. You're a great person who cares for others and like to play a lot. Your childish and all and the top priority in your life is your family and to have fun. You dont want to be put in school and study hard. What matters to you is right now. Thats the difference between us. My top priority is my friends and family and i study hard because im ambitious too ambitious i think, i want a safe future and what matters to me is my carreer and future.
Sure i love to have fun and i like to play too but you cant have fun all the time, there's important things you have to do. No it's not fun but if you do it now you dont have to do it later and be proud of yourself.
All these tests you had to do in the end, yes i feel sorry for you for being forced to to those but to be honest you have to suit yourself. If you had studied hard from the beginning you wouldnt have to do all those shitty things.
Nah i dont care what you do anymore, do as you like, that is what you want. We've to move on and put this aside. Sure we'll chat sometimes in msn but that is all that's gonna happen. But to gröna lund we're going, that is our last good bye okay?
Thanks to you i now appreciate all the other girls in the "girlgang" more. When things come along, they've been there for me. And i really really like them.