hope i passed -_-

so i had this exam today, damn my head hurts, had a lil headache before and after that exam, well let's say it didnt become better after that. Geeez i really hope i passed, i dont wanna do that again! buhuu i really hope i did pass T_T

siigh i long for my partents arrival the 17:th :D come and celebrate my birthday :D


he hasnt called me or messaged me :/ what if he really did try to play a lil with my heart. Good that he didnt do it for too long then -_-. Maybe he doesnt wanna bug me because he knows im busy with the study. Let's see if he really waits for me

going home again :(

sigh im going home to uppsala again. Yah home to uppsala, k-holm is my home too and always will be. Weird that i like k-holm that much, there isnt much around here. Well except my family my friends and all my memories. Yah it's a lot around here hehehe...

And have to study a lil more before the exam tommorrow T_T, hope i'll pass.Wish me luck.

He called me yesterday, my heart was beating and for some seconds i didnt want to answer but i did it. Then we talked a lil and today i saw he left a message on my cell saying goodnight aww that was cute. But im still a bit confused that he suddenly wanted to talk to me. Hahaha my brother showed me this site you can search for all the people's birthdays, well those living in sweden anyway. His birthday is the 9:th of november. Hahahha another scorpio. He's exactly 3 days older than my oldest brother. funny huh XD

And im turning 19 in 19 days -_-, i don wanna, i like being 18.

so i answered him when i came home from sandra saying that we could meet sometime, he answered after a while and asked me if i could next week, nope i said and said i didnt know when i would come home again but i would til christmas anyway if he could wait that long. Christmas? sure i can wait he answered. Then we were sending messages back and forward asking how our lives were then i said i had to sleep.

The thing bugging me is that becca said he was a player. Hm well, i want to see for myself. It's not like im all in love with him or anything... yet ;P but we'll see if we'll meet up someday.

Omg

when i was on my way home becca sent me a message saying that pop wanted me to go to his party that night, i said i couldnt, had to study. That was not exactly the truth. I mean i do want to see him, but it's been two months and im scared XD. And why? why now, two months have passed by. And then the day after i saw a message from him that said he wanted me to come but i didnt see it until the day after. That was lucky i wouldnt have know what to answer if i had seen it. So i sent him a message apologizing for not answering and said i had wanted to see him and after two hours he sent back telling me he just woke up and said that we maybe could meet someday. I havent answered him >.<. What should i say?? have to speak with becca first, maybe she can tell me, but i know she will tell me to go. but i have to ask her a few things first...

Omg...

Gaaah

the next exam is in one week and i've just done the last math excercises and statistic ones. Finally i get to repeat and take it all over again... Geez back in high school i would have started to repeat like two- four weeks ahead of big tests -_-. Hope i'll make it :S.

Tehehe i wore my rainponscho today, had to bike home in the fugging rain -_-. It's been raining the last couple of days already, why cant it stop raaain T_T. Not fun to bike home in the rain.

Buhuu my lamp in the hallway stopped working so now i have to buy a new bulb and the lamp in my room is kind of wacked too T_T and i dont have any food left. Feels like i have to buy food all the time gooosh. And always forget to buy some stuff when i am buying and blalbalblabla etc.

Have to buy sandras present tomorrow or the day after. On friday im gonna go home to katrineholm weeee. Get to see our new tv at home. My parents bought a new one :D and im gonna meet fatima :D wee loong time ago!! naah have to sleep soon blah.

Smell ya later!

study, study oh and study

I wake up study, go to school come home and study, make some food and study and then i have a lil freetime to watch anime :P, currently watching ayashi no ceres, wow it rules. Yeah all i do is study eat sleep. But i have to say, that this is much better than high school, am i crazy? Im studying more. Nah it's funnier now. I dont know maybe it's the fact that im studying with others now that are like me. Before there were people that thought ooh she's so uncool study all the time and shit. But now the people around me is like me and we even study togheter. It's so great. When i finally get it it's fun ^^. A few days ago i called home and sighed and said i couldnt make it, i didnt understand anything and the exam is in two weeks and blablalblaba i want to go home. But now it feels better, maybe i know a lil more, but still have to study a lot.

In 9 days im going home again ^_^. Have to buy Sandra a present, it's her birthday \(^_^)/ I thought of a scarf or a hat, whatcha think? Dont have time yet, im gonna do it the day before :P. Oh and tomorrow i get comviq :D but still have some cash from the old one >.< Oh well i get 150 crones free.

Ah that's right have to cook some rice for tomorrow!

Buhbye!!

[PV] MIKA NAKASHIMA - Yuki No Hana

yaay

Omg this day was nervwrecking, thought of my exam all day there and then when i finally stood there in the line to get it i realized i've forgotten my id, fortunately i didnt need it. So i grabbed the test and put it directly in my bag. Didnt want anyone to ask how it went, what if i fail? Then me and srebrenka went home but went to the cityhouse first to get our presents as new uppsalaresidents XD. Hm it took them one month to send me this present thing, well okay after that we biked home and as soon as i came home i pulled my map out and looked for my exam but it wasnt there and after i while i remembered i put it in my notebook and sighed a bit and pulled it out and there i held my exam and then pulled out the contents in it, i saw the points in every part but couldnt find the result of all of it together. It was all pulled out and every paper lied there all around on the floor haahha XD Omg i was so excited. There i found it my points 57, 42 was the passing point, YES i said and that was it. No biggie now XD I've passed, phew ^^". This has been a looong nervwrecking trip. I passed my first exam ever.

Oh and the present i got from the cityhouse, there was this girl that told me you would get a free cake from a store, wee i thought but i didnt get anything, but i did get a t-shirt! It was better that way, no place for a cake anyway XD My part of the fridge is full. Still have the cinnamon buns i baked for some friends there that takes a lot of place. Yeah it was a t-shirt a small pen and lots of information papers.

Hope my book will come today, i really have to start read for the next exam -_-.

Did i pass??

Omg the examresults are out im gonna know my result tomorrow aaaah im so scared, what if i failed, i dont know if i'll forgive myself if i do. I mean i've been studying since it started, if i fail i suck!

I dont wanna fail i dont wanna do the retest Baaaaah! im nervous. i wanna know my result.

back in Uppsala again -_-

so i was back at home in katrineholm again and now im back here... boring

have my first exam tomorrow, hope i'll pass, i almost look forward to this exam... weird

so i chatted with my friends when i was home. aaww i really miss them, i feel so comfortable with sandra and becca, like them a lot ^_^ and then becca had to take the next bus home and we splitted :( bleh and sandra dont wanna study next term and i had all this thing planned that we would live together and she would be the man in our relationship XD but nah she doesnt wanna start studying right away -_-

Mah might find some place anyway next year, maybe an apartment with someone else, sounds kinda fun :) and hopefully it will be someone fun, either a really nice girl or a nice looking nice guy XD just kidding hahahaha.

hmm dont feel that lonely as i thought i would, thats good, thought i would miss home right away but it feels kind of okay. But i didnt wanna leave katrineholm but it feels okay XD



sigh, i still miss him...