Moving, byebye Katrineholm

So today im gonna move and leave Katrineholm, of course i'll come back and visit my family now and then, but im gonna live in Uppsala... My mum always tells me to settle down there after the studies, find a job, build up a family and so on. Yeah i might do that.
Damn my throat hurts, it's been three days now -_- and yeah it hurts all the time not just when i swallow... bleh

Me and my dad are gonna go with the train at 1pm and my mum and brother are driving there. I want to learn how to go with the train, hehehe im not really sure how's it working "^^. And i wonder if i have all the things i want to bring with me packed down yet. Mah i hope so...

Oh and yesterday i decided to go outside and take pictures of some places here well take a look

My um day nursery? (dagis)


First school


It's the same area but we were put here after some years "-_- (outcasts)


second school, boy i remember those years...


my high school years... both bitter and sweet memories


How i remember the high school


Byebye Katrineholm

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[PV] ENDLESS STORY - YUNA ITO

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OLIVIA (Reira Trapnest) - a little pain

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Personality Type Report for Anna
Your Personality Preferences

INTROVERT
While you may not be anti-social, you do need (and deserve) your private time and space to retreat from the world. Unlike extroverts, you need to develop a concept of the world or some aspect of it before experiencing it. Too much socializing may sap your energies. Your energies are derived from exploring the inner world of ideas, impressions and pure thought.

SENSORY
You usually gather information with your senses: what you can see, hear, taste, touch and smell in the physical world. The facts gathered from the sensory data you process are the building blocks of your model of our world. You concentrate your energies on what actually exists and do not ponder what might exist too much. You are usually practical and rely on your common sense to guide you through the world. You see things as they are and have little or no need to search for underlying meanings.

JUDGING
You like decisions to be made as soon as possible. You are not comfortable with loose ends and like to see conflicts resolved as soon as possible. You have a preference for a well-structured, orderly lifestyle with few surprises. It may not be all that important who makes the decisions that gets things done as long things do get done. You take commitments very seriously. While you are not inflexible, you do like to stick to a plan once it is set into motion.

FEELING
You make decisions subjectively based upon your values and what is important to you. How people will be affected by your decisions is important to you. You are likely to make decisions based upon what you feel is acceptable and agreeable rather than what is logical. Your truths are founded in your values and those of the society you live in. It is important to remember that we are discussing how you evaluate data and make decisions, and that you rely on your feelings to do so in no way implies you are overly emotional.

Your Personality Type
Introvert/Sensing/Feeling/Judging

While quiet and reserved by nature, you are very warm-hearted, considerate, gentle, and trustworthy. You have a very well developed work ethic, which ensures you will complete the task before you in a timely manner. You like to help others and are very comfortable working behind the scenes to do so. Getting the job done is far more important to you than accolades for a job well done. You are detail oriented and meticulous in your work habits. Even small mistakes haunt you. While you are not one to give orders, you are very supportive of those around you.

In relationships you are kind, considerate, and show your affection by fulfilling the needs of those you love. You want a comfortable life for yourself and your loved ones and will do what you can to make your lives so. You like a structured lifestyle with well defined goals. You avoid hurting others. Your need to feel needed can keep you in unhealthy relationships with overly needy people. .

Famous People of Your Type:

Louisa May Alcott, Lord Tennyson, Barbara Bush, Charles Dickens, Queen Elizabeth II of England, Robert E. Lee, Queen Mary I.

Occupations Suited to Your Type Include:

Bookkeeper, clerical specialist, computer operator, counselor, curator, dental hygienist, medical assistant, nurse, office manager, optician, paralegal, retailer, secretary, teacher, and veterinarian.

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proceeding

okay i suck at orientation, i mean it, i have to drive that road a several times before i can remember how to go it. It's easier to walk those roads than to drive -_-. well we found the place where i was gonna get my keys to the room and went to see my room. I liked it, it's bigger than my room now <.< and i have my own bathroom ^_^, too bad it wasnt a shower instead, it would be better, but you cant have it all. After that we went to Mc'donalds and a grabbed a burger >.<, i dont like burgers, it's yucky but i chose el maco chicken and it was really good ^^. My room's empty so we had to go and buy furniture for it, so we asked for the road to ikea and bought a bed, table and chair. Keewl
We went to see the university too, it was an old house, not gonna be there, gonna be in a place called BMC.

Sigh we had to drive the road where i drove to work... i really miss him...

Visiting the new town

so yesterday me and the rest of my family minus one brother went to Uppsala at 8am yeah early. After about two hours we were there. I studied the map and it wasnt as difficult as i thought it would be ^^, mah gotta go out and fix some things, but i'll be back *quoting the terminator

Finally!

The workweeks are finally over and i finally told him :D! And i was grubbling about him not being there today and i was never gonna see him again but there he was and asked me what i wanted to say and i told him. Hahaha he didnt believe me but i said i wasnt joking but he still didnt believe me -_-. Whatever, i told him anyways ^_^ that was what i wanted :D.

- What did you want to say yesterday? (he said wrong it was two days ago <.<) (vad ville du säga igår?)
- I wanted to answer your question if i had i crush (jag ville svara på din fråga om jag var kär)
-What? (it's noisy in the factory -_-) (va?)
- I wanted to answer your question if i had a crush!
- Who do you have a crush on? (vem är du kär i?)
- In you (i dig)
- In me?? (I mig?)
- (nodding)

then i walked away
on the break i was playing on my cellphone and when i looked up i saw him sitting there and looking at me, i asked;
- What? (vad?)
- You were joking right? (du skojade va?)
- No (nej)
- You were joking (du skojade)
- No i wasnt! why do you think that? (nej det gjorde jag inte, varför tror du det?)
- It cant be (det kan inte va)
- i wasnt joking! (jag skojade inte!)

Then he walked away with his smile
And on lunchbreak i was looking in a magazine and could feel him looking at me and waited for me to look up, after a while i did, he asked;
- is it good? (i was looking at a cooking magazine and was eating) (är det gott?)
I nodded but he kept looking at me so i said, what thinking i heard wrong 'cause i had music on
- but he smiled and went to his place

i was sitting in the office printing labels when he and another one came, he saw me and smiled and said;
- I still can't believe it (jag fattar fortfarande inte)
- I wasnt joking (jag skojade inte)

The other person asked, is she yours, he said no, aww i should have said, no he doesnt want me. He said i had i boyfriend i said no and the other person asked me again i said no i dont have. I cant believe it he said again -_- and left with a smile as usual after that there was no more conversation again XD i avoided him :P
What if he likes me then he should contact me, but i dont really care if he does or not, im gonna leave this town soon anyway and become an uppsalaresident

Aaah no more work, now i have like two weeks vacation before i start to study again and im gonna go take a look on tuesday with my parents. Yes i finally told him and got that out of me, now i have no regrets ^_^

easier said then done -_-

well i did get to ask him what he meant by asking me if i had a crush. He just said, well

sidenote: there was this girl from my future university that called and asked me if i had any questions XD haha

okey back to today. yeah he said well do you have a crush? Then i asked him if he had one, he said i asked you, but i asked back, he said maybe and i asked who, he said Who? who? then he mumbled no one wants me and as usual walked away and left me there. Gosh it was a lil cute in the beginning but it's starting to get annoying -_-, no one dares to say it first. I should have said, yes i have a crush on you! But i just couldnt. I was all aah im gonna say it today im gonna say it! It's much easier to say it than to do it -_-. Im tired, both glad and sad that tomorrow it's the last day, although im gonna work on sunday again but it'll be the last day tomorrow if he's not gonna work on sunday... After that i'll never see him again. Let's see if i dare to do anything tomorrow. Or if any chances he will...

Funny day ^_^

Today i woke up all happy and alert, i was gonna be more social today, better than the quiet one sitting there with the deep thoughts. As usual i came there to the locker room where my other co-workers stood and i shouted good morning everybody!
Aww becca has this cute braids. Yesterday i thought that i was gonna give it up on him and let it go and was all ready for this, that's why i was all happy 'cause i thought it was all cleared up. I talked and laughed with the others and then during work i saw him and smiled and he smiled back then he sent someone (the person who owed me gasmoney) to ask me if i had a crush. I was like duuurr?? I got embarrassed and said umm well i dunno... What tha... what was that all about XD? Then when he came back i was too embarrassed to look at him, so when i saw him and he saw me i looked down on the ground. He must have felt that he made a fool out of himself XD. Omg that must mean he likes me too right right? Always looks at me with this big smile. He doesn't say anything, I say hello, he looks at me and smile, i say good morning, he looks at me and smile. Becca told me to not look down again next time, she was all Anna look look! He's looking at you omg why did you look down omg! XD hahhaa so the next time he walked by i took the courage and looked at him and didnt look down and he looked at me and again smiled his big smile. Hahahaha he's so cute, i wanted to ask him what the question was all about. He acted like he didnt see me and quickly walked away looking down at the ground, but this day have been fun, we bumped into eachother a lot this day and i asked him what the question was all about he just smiled and patted my arm and quickly walked away. Aww so cute, even shyer than me :P

haha what should i do he's trying to avoid me now XD so cute :p

What is up with me? Seems like i attract a lot of thai peeps. First this admirer and then i think there's this older one, he always acts like we know eachother real well and jokes around with me. I mean i dont even know him O_o he's a friend of the people i drive there and knows my name, i dont know his eheh i asked one time it was something with M and even the one i like ^_^
i think i might go out on friday, but not to the pre party at his place, no no, it's too much, i don wanna be in his house, that'll be awkward... and becca wont go there so i don wanna, maybe if i had company.

It feels like i have to do something now, he did take the first step, i have to take the second :P, but how if he keeps avoiding me XD omg so cute! I thought i was shy XD have to stop him, pull his arm and ask if he likes me.

should i go?

went to bed at 9 pm and woke up like 11.30 and couldnt sleep for a while, i listened to my brothers breathing and wondered, are they awake too? But nah they were sleeping.
Yesterday my parents bought a shoeshelf, my brother was building it when i came back from the sunday work. He wasnt there yesterday, that was kinda good, i dont know how to react anymore when he's near me.

You should dare more, becca said. You have to put in a move this week. Naah i said, i let it be, knowing i'll regret it later in my life for not daring. But it's so hard. How should i do? I mean i've never done it before and i dont want someone that doesnt like me like i like him, and if he likes me he can ask me out right?

When i came to work this morning i saw him as usual sitting there in the lunchroom. He saw me, I saw him and we didnt turn away. I smiled against him and looked another way. When i walked in to the workarea and looked at the list of doings today and saw that i wasnt gonna work near him. Aw man i thought, and we usually work at the same spot for a whole week. It's my last week and i'm gonna work in a place away from him. The friday i got to work close to him and we joked around all the time, why do they have to split us up the last week im there? If it was a few weeks ago i would be thrilled to get rid of this job and finally have some vacation, but now im feeling sad that this will be the last week seeing him. I should try but i just cant... Im so irritated at myself, i wish i could do it.

My co-worker said something about a preparty at his place this friday, to celebrate our last week. I should go, shouldnt i? But im not really a partyperson and dont feel i belong in those situations either. I feel awkward around people my age i dont know and the only one i feel comfortable going with is becca. The others are my co-workers and we hang out but they are freezing me out, becca get along with them but i dont and for the first time i dont really care either, it's not like im gonna have to be with them for much longer, if this was a longterm job then i might get hurt knowing they dont really like me. I dont really care much about them either, i've tried but it doesnt click and it feels like im the only one trying. Well im used to people ignoring me and freezing me out so it's no biggy. I didnt care open up and show them some of my personality, i just sit there and not talk, laugh a bit at their jokes and so but no more. Im just sitting there thinking of him and wonders if he does the same.

Should i go to the party at his place? I dont know, what if he's around me, what should i say? what should i do? Omg what if im dragged to dance, how embarrasing if he sees me dancing. One thing is for sure, im not gonna get drunk. If i even drink anything with alcohole.

Hahaha when i was in eskilstuna at saturday i saw another Pop, he was short and cute too as Pop XD. He worked in a clothstore and helped my brother picking a pair of jeans. When i walked him we smiled to eachother and he said hi. Aww another Pop i thought.

Im thinking of changing my hairstyle, a lil sick of this now, this lil curly thing from my visit to china. Up it's straight and turn into curves at the end making it look crappy. But i dont wanna cut my hair, i want to grow long hair, to my bellybutton or something. I have always want that long hair but it always end up with me sick of the hair with no volume and cut it shorter, so i've never have that long hair i always wanted. Im thinking of wanting my straight hair back too, straigt and black. But im also thinking of colouring it again, with a bottle of blonde colour, just to see if i get brown hair by it XD.

Sigh i havent played on my dancepad for a while, not my keyboard either, i just dont feel like it, but i really dont want to get either of it up. I get guilty... I dont wanna quit, especially not the piano but i just dont feel like it. Sigh and when i move out to Uppsala i cant download things anymore, bleh and im not getting a tv so what should i do when i have time to spill. No anime, no films, no music... Oh man im moving out soon. Nervous yes. I checked around and saw they had training spots where there are yoga, aerobics and a lot of funny excersises. Yay! But that was the summerscheduale, and a halfyearcard is expensive -_-. But i want and have to excercise, i dont want to be a lazy sitting around. It's fun and keeps me fit XD

Im always thinking i'll die alone with no one that loves me by my side. I'll never find love, i have to get a pet do keep me company when im older.

finally!

yes finally i took the courage to go and ask him for gasmoney. He's stoopid, no one needs to ask for the money you come and say it yourself. omg geez i actually had to go and ask him for the money. The best part is that he found someone else to go with and didnt say it to me before so i waited for him -_-. ehehehe geez some people

my belly hurts my head hurts and im tired. Slept like one hour yesterday...

I didnt see him yesterday and was all sad and thought he had gone on vacation or was sick or whatever and was never gonna come back again til i end there. It's just one more week. Gonna work on sunday again ^__^, i lil because he might be working then too XD. He was there today and came from behind and pulled apron, i turned around and saw him smiling, wasnt expecting to see him there. We joked around all day long, i hit him a few times and he yelled what's the matter with you? hahaha hmm maybe because you are bullying me! I helped him pull down some chickens and as usual he looks at me and smiles thinking i dont have to help because im a girl <_<. Eheh no no im not gonna sit around and expect guys do everything just because they are guys, i mean hello we're living in the 21:st century -_- Like this girl i was working with today, she didnt even try <_<.

Aaww he sang Boten Anna to me today XD. One day im gonna ask him how tall he is XD. i might be taller hahaha XD

Ayumi Hamasaki - Forgiveness

crush?

Omg i think i really have a crush on him... I cant stop thinking of him. But shouldn't you be filled with joy and happiness when you are in love? I feel very down, but that might have something to do with us ignoring eachother and that... I really want to know what he thinks of me. I dunno... it feels like whenever i look at him, he looks away and when he looks at me i look away. Im never gonna dare be close to him and talk to him more than five seconds. I really dont wanna miss this one. Iv'e done this thing too many times and have all those big regrets in my life that i cant go back and change, will this be another one?
It's only one and a half week left and i will never see him again after it... I wanted to tell one of my co-workers to talk to him for me but i couldnt even do that, maybe if she was a closer friend i would ask her to do this favour for me and wouldnt feel ashamed, or i would still be, i think this kind of stuff is really embarrassing.

That's it after work we'll never see eachother again and im gonna start my studies somewhere else and end of story... I dont want to...

During work i thought, if he was gonna turn me down, then i could spend the rest of the days avoiding him, it's not that long time left and that, so i could be embarrassed and know what he felt about me and then move on. Now i just cant stop thinking of what he feels about me. Is it just me imagining stuff about he liking me because i like him or does he really like me? All those questions im thinking about and i even think about what we would do if we were to get together, what will happen? What would we talk about, his swedish isnt the best, and im gonna move to uppsala and stuff like that.

Should i just give up? I really have to ask someone else to ask for me, i wont be able to do that myself.

When did this whole crushthing even began? First time i saw him i thought he was just cute and helpful, didnt feel anything then, but then when i heard i had i thai admirer i first thought of him, didnt see any other thai boy there and he had been really nice to me so i think it started right there. Aww man, they shouldnt have told me. Now i just feel down and depressed.

I have no one to talk to either, i want to talk to becca but there's no time for one on one talk there and well we arent on the stage where we can call eachother and chat.

Im so desperate -_-