Kdrama I'm sorry I love you

so nice weather!

AAh it's so beautiful weather outside now, all the people are happier now too, you can really tell, when the dark comes everyone seems to be a bit depressed. I went outside on a break in the lecture and felt the sun against my face. It was so sweet and nice. AAAh i said.

Tomorrow im going home to Katrineholm again. Yay. Sigh cant wait til our summerbreak that's in about a bit more than 2 months away. Wonder where I'll be summerworking. If i get a summerjob that is. Hope there will be something in the pharmacy for me. But dont really think there will, I think i have to be a bit more in the studies to get a chance to summerwork there. But let's hope for the best.

What a rip of!!

so i went to the dentist today thinking well, fortunately i don't have to pay anything, lalala. But nope after the examination they said okay that'll be 600 SEK.
I was like... but isn't it free until i turn 20? Nope not in their fricken state or what you call it. GOOOsh 600 SEK???! Not even half the price for me, a poor student that can't even afford all the good stuff every frigging month! I'm sooo mad now, how can they expect me to pay full price?! I don't even have a job, and i don't take any loans anymore. WHAT THE FUUUCK!!! I'm so irritated, i shouldn't have turned down the time for examination in Katrineholm. There it should have been for free. BUuhuu, they took a whole months money for food from me T_T. So glad my mum gives me some money every month or i wouldn't afford any. Not to mention all the expensive course books i have to buy for every new course.

passed :D

Yay i passed my exam in organic chemistry :D

Me and Karolina was about to go to a lesson on quick step this wednesday. We saw a flyer but it said that it was binding if you wanted to go... You have to pay 490 SEK. On the flyer it said you could try it out the first time but not... -_- And we were all excited about it.

Read in a newspaper about an ice cream named Girlie XD Hhahaha it was a ruckus about discrimination and shit. Omg there's a lot of other more serious things to worry about than an silly pink ice cream gosh... Im gonna try it out tomorrow :D. Oh and tomorrow it's my first visit to the dentist in Uppsala. Fortunately i know where the place is.

Tehehe my labgroup drew lots about who was gonna take the blood tests for the lab and that person are not allowed to eat on the night before neither eat breakfast. And im just so glad i dont have to do it! Had a similar thing in high school but there they gave you a special breakfast, here you cant eat it and you have to drink a disgusting glucose drink >.<. Good luck member in my group XD

It's so nice weather outside, but it was cold in the morning so i had my thick jacket and it was a bit hot when i biked home if you say so.

Well well, in summary, i passed the exam and tomorrow im gonna try out the girly Girlie ice cream, that is pink!

You stink

Gaah you stink, go take a shower >_<



Aaww i like this song, it's from one litre of tears, you should watch it if you want to see a girl fighting against the death that's waiting for her.
Right now im watching I'm sorry I love you. On the 11th episode now, can't wait to see what will happen.

You decide!

If I send you a message asking which time we should meet and give you two times to choose from, don't send a message back saying it doesn't matter you choose.

That craps the hell out of me. Why the hell is some people not able to make the decision? I know, it feels like you are being rude deciding, what does the other person want. But I've learned that it's more rude to let the other person decide all the time. It feels like I have to make the decisions all the time now. Just to come somewhere, instead of what do you think, um i dunno what do you think and it keeps on going like that. Pleeease I want to be the one that doesnt have to decide once in a while. It's not just that, it costs to send messages back and forward! Tehehe i ignored that message and let her believe what she wanted. And these girls i get to school with, it feels like im the messenger between them, they dont message eachother, they go through me so i have to message around wasting cellphone money.

Let me be!

lotsa birthday kids ^_^

so first it was this guy in my class and the day after my friend, i went to town to buy a necklace to her. Hope she liked ^_^
Im glad im not 20 and leaving the teenage world yet ;P. Don wanna become older, me like being 19 ^_^. Or wait i liked being 18 but turned 19 -_-

Purple and Brown - Irish Jig

so ugly XD

sunny day

Im not getting sick ^_^.

I went to town today, it was a long time since i've been in town here in Uppsala. Looked for a birthday present for a friend and i saw this cute little necklace and bought it. First i wanted to buy a book but it was kind of expensive and i really dont have that much money to waste now, now that i bought two tickets home -_-. The necklace was a bit less expensive so i bought it. Aaah spring, i love spring the most. Not too warm and not too cold just perfect ^_^. What day is it, right 15th, in 2 weeks i'll be going home again ^_^ A lot of back and forth.

It's not long till summerbreak ^_^ let's see 12 weeks left. wow that sounded much... sigh

College Saga

dont watch if you dont know rpg, then you wont get it *XD

Am i getting sick? -_-

My throat feels a bit crappy, think it'll hurt later on and im getting a cold -_-...
Wore my jeans jacket today, it was kinda warm yesterday and my springjacket is home in katrineholm so i gambled and well, it was a bit too cold and now i think im getting a cold. Rats...

Warning only read if you want to hear my lifestory
So i talked to my mum about my four days break and she told me to get home. Okay i said. I'm so easy to persuade XD. Well i wanted to do it to begin with eheh. I don wanna be alone here T_T. What would i do? omg what if i didnt have my family what would i do then? I dont have any close friends here either, man i would have rotten here all alone. I remembered my 19th birthday, was all alone, just got messages from my friends in katrineholm. Man it's hard to get close buddies. How did i get those from high school? To be honest i dont have that many friends. It's a bit sad but as long as i have my "girl gang" friends of whom i like three of them the most, im happy. Im not really that extroverted and get friends easily. Well i get a long with everyone but dont get all buddy like. And it's especially hard now when everyone seems to have found their "groups". And im hanging out with one too. Oh reminds me of when i started high school. Before i thought i wouldn't get any friends there. I was this quiet kid during junior high. Well to start from the beginning, when i was litte and started school, i just hung out with one girl. Well i had her why should i make friends with another one i thought then. In 5th grade she moved and switched classes. There i was all abandoned. What would i do? I had never played with anyone else in my class back then. I cried on the breaks but then a girl who was my friend from the kindergarden, she invited me to play with her friends. So there i was playing with them. But i was quiet, didnt say anything. I was just there with them, laughed at their jokes. Well not so good, i felt that they were just being a good classmate that let me hang with them, they didnt actually like me. I could feel it. The girl who invited me to their "group" also went junior high with me. We hung there too and still i was this quiet girl. I always thought, say something now, something interesting common. With that in my mind all the time it felt like my mouth was even more locked and nothing was said. I could feel her getting annoyed and didnt really want to be with me. She made new friends there and i was just there just because. She was tired of me and showed it pretty clearly. She dumped me a lot of times to be with her new friends. I remembered crying a lot of times during junior high. As that wasnt enough, i had these stupid classmates in my class there too. They teased me for being chinese and made me feel really bad. I was such a pushover too, couldnt defend myself. Gaaah i hated me back then, i hate how i let them hurt me so much!
I really dislike that girl too, she was not a real friend if you say so, i remembered her laughing when one of those bastards teased me. I was so alone... This was not that good to my confidence. I dont know how many times i feel that im not good enough, and still am... It feels like it's always my fault for everything wrong that happens... I try to act tough all the time. A lot of people told me i always look angry and bitter. Hm well it's just the way i look ok? It might have been all the thing i've gone through...
So with this shattered piece that was left of me, junior high ended and summerbreak was on. High school was waiting and i was so afraid of the same thing would repeat again in high school. Mum i wont get any friends i told my mum. I will be all alone! But as high school started something happened with me, i started to talk. Must have been because no one knew eachother and i could start a new life. I made friends and the "girl gang" that a teacher named it, was formed. I was so happy and couldnt wait to get back to school every weekend. I especially liked one of the girls. She was great. She was always there for you. Man i really loved her and i so wanted to be there for her like she had always been there for me but that didnt go well. She didnt want me to get so close... Because of that and our differences in personality our friendship was up and down. But i will always remember and you will always be my best friend. You are the one that really changed me a lot and taught me a lot and the most important of all, you were always there for me. I really wished you had let me be there for you.
High school ended and now im stuck here in college now. Well now i knew i could make friends with my real personality, the one that's been hiding behind my quiet attitude before in junior high. I could easilly talk to all the new people here. At first i made friends with two dudes. They were cool but then i made friends with the girl im hanging out with now, it felt like i was dragged between those. Either i hung with them or her. It was so hard -_-. Why cant we hang out all together. The girl im hanging out with now is not that talkative and the others are so maybe the differences eheh. So i had to choose... Now it's something weird between me and them... Well shit happens... we're not friends anymore... Sad but true life moves on. Am i enjoying my time here, hm not really. Seems like i dont have anyone to fall back on anymore. It's pretty stressful, im gonna be here for four more years... I want to start a new life again where no one knows me and try again. It's so much i want to go back and redo to the better.

But i've learned a lot and i wouldnt be the person im today if i hadnt gone through all these things.


Dont talk to me about the things i've written if you know me. It's kind of embarrasing to talk about it. It's my inner thoughts and feelings. The most important, don't think im a bitch if i sometime ignore or snaps you off, it could be because im a sad person. I know i cant blame on that all the time, sometimes i just am i bitch and that is because you stink XD. Okay just don't mention anything i've written here with me okay?

Oh boy i really admire you, is my life really that interesting to you :P Okay thank you byebye ;P

I've catched up with bleach again ;P

Yes Ferrydear i watched up till 118 now and boy do you sing pweetty ^_^ Sing more for me :D

Gaaah this new course is so boring. It seems like it's just a lot to read and get into the head, that's good but omg so boring. The time went really slow on the first lecture and the one responsible for the course, we're gonna have lectures with him too, he's eyes are closed all the time and he seems to have really funny lectures too -_-, yes i was ironic if you didnt get it.
But the times for this course is really great ^_^ a lot of breaks now and then. I asked my friends if they wanted to come up here in Uppsala to join me but no one could :(. What am i gonna do in four days off?? Im not gonna go home, i have labs right in the middle of the breaks, bought the ticket after the labs. Can't buy tickets to go home before those too -_-. Well i can but to much travelling then not to mention the ticket money. Im not really floating in money ehehhee...

Well of to watch desperate housewives toodles your noodles!

Exam over :D

Yes finally this course is over! I did the examination today and i think it went pretty well. We can only hope for the best!

Now i have a whole half day to do absolutely nothing and don't feel any guilts XD weee. Aaaah this is life.

I put up some papers about selling my bed today. Hope someone will buy it. But my mum said she wouldn't buy me the sofabed until summer. Yeah it's for the best. Easier to do the wallpapers without having to think where to put all my furniture. But then i would have to sleep on the airbed for a very long time.

BUY MY BED! I want the turquiose one from ikea :D I'm in love with it XD

Spring spring you are so pretty

Spring!

I can't believe i haven't been writing about the warm temperature outside. Finally spring! It came fast this year, it's always a process with melting and then snowing again and the road are always plasky. But not this time, it's warm and the snow is pretty much gone. Okay that was a lie but it's still springweather outside :D.

Watched melodifestivalen yesterday. Nope i don't usually watch it but i don't have any other channels so i decided to watch it, it was finale. Rooted for Sebastian, the one who came 2nd in idol 2005. Didn't root for him to win but to win over that crappy Måns anyway. I don't like him, something about him irritates me, must be his "sexy" smile that everyone else likes. But he won over Sebastian, crap! Aww i saw how disappointed Sebastian was.

Aaah i want the new course now. This one is getting boring, fortunately it's over tomorrow...

Haha oh that's right, i washed some of my clothes and someone took out my bathroomrug from the dryer and put his/her clothes in there... The other time someone did it, i didn't care and went but this time i stopped the dryer and went. HAH you like evil Anna right?! But i did get a bit, hm should i go back and turn it on again but i didnt tehehhehee... *evil grin*. Man im going to hell -_- if there is one that is.

But how nice can you be until you get pushed over? I think I treat others like i want to be treated back, well not always but as much as i can XD. I get so irritated over myself after being a bitch all the time and ponder around with it for i dont know how long.

I don't have any best friend, that's bugging me. I really want someone to share all my thoughts with. I tried to get close someone but she didn't want it... My mum told me that you dont have to have any best friend, just friends. Well yeah but...

As long as im not alone i think...

Back

Damn i have this yucky feeling about not studying today, i took a day off XD and it feels um not good. Have to study a lot tomorrow ...

Anyway Im back in Uppsala now, booring. We we're out 10 in the morning and drove here. First we left my package in my home then we went to Ikea to eat meatballs XD. Thought of ferry about him eating meatballs tehhee. It was the first time i ate meatballs there. Tried to fold a lizard yesterday with an annoying sound in the background, had to stop and rewind several times but i gave up after a while, couldn't get it right and didnt really feel like folding and threw it away. Damn you, i shouted. Well not really but i should have XD. So i didnt meet fatima yesterday, she had a lab, poor thing and i told her that she shouldnt stress, if we cant meet this time we'll do it next time. Didnt get any answer <.<

Ooh i really want the sofabed i saw in ikea! it was soo nice and pretty just like me XD jk it was turquoise. Hmm im gonna think about it when they change my wallpaper XD. But turquoise would fit the wallpaper i have now... But i want a change. Bleh we'll see what kind of wallpapers they have.

Tehehe my cousin bought me Pucca!! I searched for it when i was there but couldnt find it anywhere and now she found it :D. But it's in katrineholm, my brothers showed me through the webcam. After picking up dad they drove me back here ^_^. I shouldnt have followed there but mum said i should get bread that dad brought from Hk (i love those bread) and so i followed, it was planned that i would take the train back, it's not so far from Uppsala from there, but we decided to drive me back up. Ahh sweet didn't have to walk all the way home from the station. Have a lot of bread and my mums food here now. It's gonna last till summer i think XD. And the new one hasnt moved in yet. The old one's mailbox are full!
Hope i'll pass this exam -_-. I hate this feeling. I just took one days break, i wont forget everything from one day right? GAAh so long for summerbreak then i wont feel guilty for not studying. Im such a swot T_T

Hope i don't have to do my summerjob in kronfågel!

Gonna sleep in my hard bed tonight -_-. Hope i dream about that sofabed from ikea. so preeetty yes you are, yes you are *drools~

closing in

And i thought there wouldn't be enough study time. I don't know how much i've repeated the same thing over and over again. The sad thing is that i don't really know if i get it in my head... I've downloaded a lot of NANA stuff :P, yeah the music. Uploaded it on my imeem account. It's getting warmer outside :) great, after almost freezing off my fingers in the cold winter just to get to frigging school. My mum always tells me to take the bus but you know me, im crazy and "likes" to bike in the cold and freeze my frigging fingers til it hurts. And boy does it hurt! It's soo soft to be home, i don't have to make myself something to eat and think of what to eat ^_^. But soon i have to go home, actually on saturday to put the date. Don't have to take the train, my brother is driving me home to pick up my dad from the train too. He's gonna take the train to Uppsala after Arlanda tehehe. My bag is really heavy so mum decided to drive me home. Yay don't have to drag that heavy bag home with all the food mum prepared for me. Aww i really love my mum ^_^. And dad bought a lot of goodies from Hk too that he's bringing home and my cousin said she found Pucca for me :D. Google it if you don't know what it is <.<. Oup finished downloading kuroi namida! Gonna upload it on my imeem now ;P

Smosh Short 1: Dolls

haha

woot

So soft to be home in Katrineholm, i eat a lot have to lose some weight when i go back XD.

Yesterday i talked to an old classmate, the funny thing was that he asked me for my number... Hmm, why now after all these years, is he interested in me ;P. To be honest i had a lil crush on him back then ehehe...

Whatcha think about my layout? I know the colours doesn't really fit but i dont know what colours to match with.

7/6 the last day and then summerbreak wohoo! Oh right have to call and search for summerjobs now. Toodles

1 of mars!

Yaay finally i can go home to Katrineholm! MMm my mums food *drools*

Just have to get to school get this over and then take the bus to railwaystation and tata~ Bye Uppsala I'll be back the 11th